I though only SAM is the most pressure foundation studies, but i didnt expect A level to have so many homeworks!! Besides homework, i still need to write my own note for every subject and highlight all the text book. Even so,i  still havent had a chance the read my textbook.. Everyday i back home, i need to plan my schedule, felt like no time for me to relax a while,. Haiz, i think the super special awesome lazy me is becoming super ultra gigantic tired person. I came  back at home around 6pm, then i felt like going to sleep for a while. So i just crumble on my bed, use my hand to cover my eye, and prepare to zzz. But in the end i did not slept. My attention switch to the picture just beside my desk. Picture of my old schoolmates..... and this told me. I got promise to fulfill. I cannnot rest now, i need to pull myself together, and continue to work.... until the time to rest is come then i can stop.

 

So, in the end i just stuck on my desk and keep seaching for answer for my questions. To prevent me from getting asleep, i drink plenty of water(hate coffee anywhere), and continue to work. But, got once, i reached my limitation, my hand is shaking, both of my eyes are red. I really wan to give up, give up everything, why bother to be so suffering, why dont just enjoy the life. Just when i wanted to leave my desk, a song played in my laptop.. My first thought, this is the song that was gave by an important person. After 4 mins, the song ends, i played the song again and again, until at one point, i stopped it....  and my idea of rest, sleep, give up all dissapear.

 

What makes a song powerful? For me, it is the content of the song, and the person who send the song, thats matter. The song has all the answer i wan, and all the reasons for what i am doing now. In the past, because i m not strong enough, because i m not wise enough, i did a lot of mistake that are extremely costly. However, because of that,  i learn a lot of things, i learn from my mistake, i discover my own dream, and i know wat i need to do to be stronger. I earn a lot of things, but i still cannot fixed the mistake that i done. So, in the end i m a loser, losers have no right to stay on the court, thier only option is to leave and being forgotten.

 

I do not wish to think things any futher. So the best way is, use something to distract myself from thinking nonsense, study is a great tool, and a song is well enough to aspire me, push me futher. Getting hold of the song from someone, is the only thing i think i did right in the end